What is your inspiration throughout recovery? Maybe it’s a person or a group of people, or maybe it’s the thought of something better than this?
Inspiration can come from anywhere. All that matters is that it continues to inspire you and lift you up on this journey through recovery. My inspiration comes from many places, but most of all it comes from my family, and the friends that have stuck by me along the way.
The Inspiration that holds me together throughout all doubt;
This photo of my grandparents taken on Christmas day 2018 represents family to me. It represents the inspiration I need to keep going. Very few people my age can say that they still have both sets of grandparents but I can and for that, I am so, so lucky.
Despite recent health issues on both sides we’re all still here, we’re all still standing (somewhat) and we’re all ready for what is coming this year. We’re under no illusions that we’re on borrowed time and that’s okay; At least it’s still time.
I am recovering from my family, my friends and myself.
I can’t have what will be my final year with my grandparents overshadowed and ruined by this horrible disorder. It won’t stop me from caring for them and spending time from them.
When I was younger family didn’t matter that much. My disorder took over and getting smaller was all that I cared about. I shut everyone out and I starved, self-harmed, drank, smoked, etc because it numbed everything that I didn’t want to feel. I’m learning to accept, identify and deal with emotions in a whole different way, and it’s allowed me to open myself up to the reality of love and discomfort. I don’t need to shut people out anymore because I’m not afraid to feel the whole range of everything that comes with allowing people in.
If ever I feel like giving up I will have this photo, and so many others, to remind me why I can’t.
What gives you the most inspiration to carry on with recovery? Is it something similar to me, family and friends? Or are you motivated by something else entirely?
Leave a comment and let me know your biggest inspirations!
