I could post so many photos on here to represent family but I chose this one because it represents all those things to me.
This is a photo of my grandparents taken on Christmas day 2018. It represents family in a very big way to me. Very few people my age (26) can say that they still have both sets of grandparents but I can and for that, I am so, so lucky.
Despite recent health issues on both sides we are all still here, we are all still standing (somewhat) and we are all ready for what is coming this year. We are under no illusions that we are living on borrowed time and that’s okay; At least it’s still time.
I am recovering for them and for my family as a whole. That includes Ryan, Willow, Emma, Mum, Dad, grannies and grandads, aunts and uncles, and even Ryan’s family.
I can’t have what will be my final year with my grandparents overshadowed and ruined by this horrible disorder. I can’t allow it to stop me from caring for them and spending time from them, and I can’t let it cloud my memories.
When I was younger family didn’t matter that much. My disorder took over and getting smaller was all that I cared about. I shut everyone out and I starved, self-harmed, drank, smoked, etc because it numbed everything that I didn’t want to feel. I’m learning to accept, identify and deal with emotions in a whole different way now, and it’s allowed me to open myself up to the reality of love and discomfort. I don’t need to shut people out anymore because I’m not afraid to feel the whole range of everything that comes with allowing people in.
If ever I feel like giving up I will have this photo, and so many others, to remind me why I can’t.
This is excellent….and such a good idea. Thank you.
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Aww this was such a lovely post, it’s so lovely how much your grandparents mean to you. Not a lot of people appreciate their grandparents 💕
My partner is one of those people – it angers me so much. But I love them so unconditionally, and even more so as I get older. The guilt of how I treated people as a teenager is so overwhelming, especially how I treated them, and that’s something I’ll never be able to take away.
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Awhh! ❤️ Precious!! Grandparents are such special people. I love mine dearly for they are the ones who push and inspire me more than anybody!
Praying for you through your recovery!
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Thank you for reading love. Grandparents are so special and amazing, it breaks my heart that this time next year I won’t have the majority of them. x
Thank you so much for sharing girl! Xoxoxo
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What a beautiful picture and a key moment for you. Thank you for sharing x
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I think it’s so important to cherish our grandparents because we don’t really how much we’re missing until they’re gone. I know it’s a bit awful to say that, but it’s so true…
I wish you all of the best in your recovery!
Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment. It’s true what you say – my grandfather (far right in the photo) has recently been diagnosed with bowel cancer and, at the moment, it’s not good. My grandmother (far left) has liver cancer and has months, while the other grandfather is suffering from mini TIAs (strokes) almost daily.
It’s a lot all at once and my heart is breaking for them already. But that is why times like this are so important.
Brave words. I’ve suffered with bulimia, but have stopped for over 5 years now. You’ll feel much more positive when you come out the other side. Good luck x
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I love this picture. God bless you. Feeling your emotions moves everything along. I had some rough ones arise yesterday myself but thank goodness I sat with the energies. Thanks for sharing with us.
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